Update

As you might have known from my last post, that I had gone to Vegas for my birthday. It has taken me awhile to get back into the swing of things but hopefully I will start posting here some more.

In other news, I will be posting about my Vegas trip in a different blog, which I will announce later, for those who are curious.

I guess what I am saying is, is that unfortunately, I am losing my focus for a little bit but will be back shortly with more posts that’s related to psychology and counselling hopefully.

Lady Gaga and Counselling: I know I’m late to the party

I know I’m a bit late to this news but this blog is about psychology. So, I thought better late than never. I have been away and been super busy before I went away but these are no excuses.

So, if you haven’t already heard, Lady Gaga is providing counselling on tour. Here’s a link to an article about it and I’m sure if you google it, more will come up.

What are my thoughts on this?

I think it’s a great idea but I guess until I see it for myself, I don’t really think it’s that practical or helpful.

Counselling isn’t a one hour miracle cure. Although, meeting people with similar interests and problems could be helpful since a lot of the time, it’s the fact that we need support from others who understand us more than anything else. Although, people who have mental health issues helping/supporting others with mental health issues may not always be the smartest idea.

I do also understand that Lady Gaga is doing this to take away from the stigma of going to counselling and of mental health issues in general, which I definitely applaud her for. I am really curious as to how it all works and hope that these kids do go to the counselling portion and get something real out of it. I hope that they get referred to counsellors or referred to crisis lines, professionals that can really help and spend the time to help because I know it’s not the easiest thing to talk to professionals when you are a child and when you are excited to see a tour? I personally would have forgotten all my worries and depression because the excitement and adrenaline rush would take over and I’d be happy not depressed. Hopefully that is just me.

I honestly, hope it helps some kids out there but as I’m sure you can tell, I have a lot of doubt. It’s hard to open up and talk about these things let alone right before a concert, which you’d be excited about.

Well, that’s my two cents and I am hoping to post more this year. Also, if you would like to read about my Vegas Birthday Trip, please head over to my tumblr where I will start posting about it very soon. My tumblr is http://to-me-sarah.tumblr.com

Till the next post =)

New Year Goals? More like a very personal post

Originally what I planned to write about today was my New Year’s Goals but than I found out something last night that truly upset me.

Last year was sooo great because I had let go of all the hate and pain I had gone through with my family and just before the New Year came about, it all came back. To be honest, I don’t hate them, I am saddened. I have always been an advocate for the truth and my closest friends have put up with me speaking the truth even though sometimes it can be unbearable to hear. They understand that I tell them the truth even when no one else would because I love them.

Obviously everyone lies, a small white lie is still a lie. We all do it but you see, the problem with my family is that they suck at keeping lies or maybe I really AM just that intuitive. I have always been a very intuitive person and always go with my gut feelings but I did not expect what I heard.

This is such a public forum and I know that whatever I say on the internet, I can’t take back, so I won’t say anymore. I am just very upset right now and I want the truth to be spoken for once. Is that so hard to ask of my family? (In this post, when I talk about my family, I don’t just mean my immediate but my extended family as well.)

I grew up last year and when I went back to see my family, I was saddened because one side of my family never gathered together anymore. Since my great-grandfather passed away from that side of the family, we have all went our separate ways in a way. In some ways, I’m sure it was a relief to everyone but me. My immediate family is so different from the rest of my family that we just never saw eye to eye, they had all these prejudices towards my family because of my dad but all I remember, no all I CHOOSE to remember are the good times.

I remember staying with my aunt so I could learn drawing and Chinese Calligraphy with her daughter (my cousin), I miss playing cards with my grandma, I miss talking to my great-grandfather in broken Taiwanese, I miss how my great-grandmother use to prepare or get people to prepare all of my favourite foods when I went back. I miss hearing about the stories of how my uncle use to take me to the convenience store on his motorcycle to get junk food. I miss my family. Not just the side that have always been there for us but the side that we have lost in touch with.

If any of them ever read this, I want to ask them if they ever miss those simpler times? Am I the only one who remembers the good times? Am I the only one who misses the big family gatherings where for once it was never about us but about my great-grandfather or my grandmother?

What upset me the most, is that my own parents didn’t tell me. I guess they knew I would be upset but that is what I mean, I just want to hear the truth and they know they can’t lie to me.

I love my family, with all our ups and downs, all our trials and tribulations, all of the craziness, I love them because last year, I chose to remember the good times. I wish my family understood me better than trying to buy me off. No amount of money is going to bring back those memories, only they can. I wish they would all stop being scared of me, the only people they should fear is themselves because they are the ones who have been lying.

My goals for the New Year have now changed, I don’t even know what they are right now anymore. I need some time to think about it all but for now, I’m not going to let it stop me from enjoying my birthday vegas vacation.

Tomorrow is my birthday =) I cannot wait! Hope you all had a safe and Happy New Year! I wish you all the best in the New Year!

PS: Since I am going away from January 2nd – January 8th. I probably won’t be blogging much on this blog but you can find me on twitter (@sarahfan) and on instagram (@tomesarah).