to: present me
I know you are scared of failing but sometimes, I think you are trying to fail on purpose. You know you have to do certain things at certain times, yet you just lay there, on your bed, unwilling to do anything productive. Why can’t you just get yourself out of bed? You don’t even have to go anywhere to study anymore. You bought yourself a desk, a chair, just so that you can concentrate on studying but still, you lay there on the bed, devoid of any thoughts. You would think that your fear will kick you in the butt and get you motivated but instead, it scares you till you can’t do anything at all.
Is your fear of failure that much greater than your desire to succeed? Or are you just afraid to succeed?